Archive for March, 2017

Hard Ships
March 31, 2017

Today is an onslaught
In my intimasea
Wave after wave
Crashing against my port
Starboard
No respite
Pity me not
For this is where
My own self pity
Will be absorbed
By the sea
Transmuted
By alchemy
Along with
My other unintentional
Ball and chains.
I’m no longer
Allowing myself
To be buffeted
And tossed about
Literally
Driving me insane.
As with all
Declarations
There is a
challenge
My hard ships
Perhaps larger than some
And smaller in stature
Than others
Have blockaded
Me for a long time
No anchor
No site to shore
I am diving in
To explore
Monomyth
Jonah’s tale,
Not sure if
Mine will be a whale.
Need a different
Approach
To what has kept me stale.
Navigate
With Aid of celestial stars
And pray to angels
Here and far
If I drown
I will go down
In my story
As leaving behind
All that no longer served me
In hopes
Of better lands
To be co created with my hands.
If I transcend
The perfect storm
Shine on
My true form
And light the way
Illuminate the day.
So in this intimasea
All turns of the
Captain’s wheel
Are done intentionally.

Two Trees
March 29, 2017

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I waited for you to
Rescue me
Role reversal
The feminine hero
Heroine
My Dope
Recently all I do is mope
Do you know what
It feels like to
Be despondent
Hopeless, Helpless
Crying out for help
And hating it simultaneously?
Closing off
Myself
Lately I have been
Semi authentic
In my heavenly
Pleas
Help
Me
Please..
Why..
Why not…
I got my Wake up
Call
No Doubt

I was afraid to rock the boat
Then it became stuck in a moat
Afraid to trigger
And lost my inner navigator
Enabling in a different way
And I’m the receiving end
This time.
I became afraid of losing you
If I was me,
You liked the newer me
Attracted
But still repelled by
Possibility
To fall back
My mitigating
Only instigating

Don’t call me in
The Fall
When all your
Summer flings
With persons or things
Leave you
Still feeling
Empty inside
Missing
SoMEthing