Snapped

May 13, 2017 - Leave a Response

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Snapped
Sway bar
Stabilizer
First reaction
What’s going on
Trying to figure out
And understand.
Old energy patterns
Of blame
Anger
Crop up
Attempt to transcend
Transmute
And
Know
For I did
Observe
The emotional
Storm within
And surrender
Ask for help.
The light bulb came
A day later.
Going too fast
Swayed side to side
Out of control
Felt like i was
Going to tip over
And split.
At a certain threshold
Calm and steady
Sure it’s
Good to rock
The boat
And shake it up
But there is a balance
Not warp speed
Nor turtle pace
Either
Interesting
Usually in my haste
I’m in a rush to
Get nowhere
When behind the wheel
Griping about how
Slow this is
Or why is that
Like that.
This time
I didn’t care
About any of that
About being surpassed
Or even moving fast
Enough,
As much
As I wanted
To get home
Safe and sound.
What happens
When something
Breaks
And you can’t fix it?
You put it in
The hands of some One
Who can, surrender.
Worry about warranty
Coverage
Or will I have enough
Money to cover
It
Feed the fear fire
Only to find out
That no added
Expense
You’re covered
And taken care of
And better yet
There’s something
There to tide
You over until
You get your
Truck back
From repair.
A family van

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Dancing With My Dark

April 22, 2017 - Leave a Response

My shadows

Seem to be a

Gnarly crew.

Are they the same

For you?

Pick the soft

Spots to

Hurt

And Grind

The gears?

Is its

Foundation

Fear?

Jealousy?

Self Pity?

Anger?

Darkness?

Resentment?

Pain?

Worth Issues?

What purpose

Do they serve?

I’ve decided to

Dance

With some,

It’s up close

Embrace

Face to face,

Or wallflower

Stand still,

Sometimes

Petulance

Defiant in

Their space

So I just

Stand in front

Of them

Follow

Their lead.

Honestly,

Don’t have

A clue

As to why

I still

Carry these.

But I do

Know

Now

That I can

Be

Happy

In their

Presents.

 

What Would I do Without You

April 10, 2017 - Leave a Response

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I don’t know
What I would do without you,
Wallow in self pity
Build larger walls of resentment
Watch my anger fester
And sorrow grow?
And never really
Know
What it is
To love?
I’m still coming
To terms
With
Who You are
Or What you are
And
Dear God
Or Gaia
Or Both
I truly would
Have no
Strength
If it wasn’t
For the guidance
You give
And the Light
You provide.
One day
If I’m so blessed
To meet you
Divinity
Personified
I will look
To the skies,
Raise my arms
And then kneel
To kiss the ground
For my wishes
Come True

Embracing Vulnerability

April 7, 2017 - Leave a Response

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being vulnerable

Is Being

Or a part of

Being in the Unknown.

Being vulnerable

Means being

In the Unknown

And rewriting

What it is

To be vulnerable

Compared to

What we knew

Perhaps as a child

Or when we had no clue.

A gift from

This place of

Unknown vulnerability,

A warm embrace of self

Or knowing to trust vulnerability,

Or that vulnerability can be

Trusted.

Letting go

Of attachment to

Perceptions of outcome

And Expectation.

Vulnerability shows us

How to be

In the fire of love.

It can burn, may be singe

Or inflame

It can be warm

Illuminating, inspiring

All one in the same.

 

Twin Flame

April 5, 2017 - Leave a Response

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Watched two flames

In one candle

Dancing

Last night.

Incredible energy,

Both drawn

Together.

They bend and twist,

Turn and tilt,

Lean in, lean out

Fast, slow

Frenetic shaking

Followed by

Steady calm.

Trying to consume,

Capture, Fuse

Each other

While sharing

The same space.

So powerful and illuminating,

Attracted, repelled,

Too hot to handle,

Too cold to not

Come back

Together

In the center,

Both fuelled

By the unseen

Fluid air.

 

ps capture the minute meditation video – Candlelight – on nurtureurnature.ca tomorrow to see this brilliant dance

What I Loved About You Most

April 2, 2017 - Leave a Response

Not your smile
Or your laugh
Or the many ways
We had fun,
Creative or active,
Or the way
You would communicate
And calm things down
When i would get
Energized.
It wasn’t the
Surprise admiration
Inside
At some of the things
You would say.
What I found
Most attractive
And resonated
Immensely with the
Beauty of love
Was when you
Were asleep.
Soft,
Warm,
Defences down.
Peaceful
But most
Of all
Vulnerable.
You are most
Beautiful
In your
vulnerable self
And truth be
Told
I wish
I saw it
During the
Light
Of day.

Toy Story

April 1, 2017 - Leave a Response

Lucas
Toy Story
Inspired
By a child’s
Buried Toys
In the Arena
Of men being boys.
Needed help
To find something
He buried
And lost
But his pops
Was busy
I avoided
But my
Sympathy
Got the
Better of Me
On my knees
Digging in the dirt
With this tyke
Shortly after
Recovering
His Stuff
That’s part one
Of the Loop
In conversation
The other day
I said i was
Afraid of
Children
Scroll to the top
And you can see
I initially avoided
Part two of
The loop
Green shirt
Design caught
My eye
One word specifically
‘Maya’
Once wrote a poem
About the concept
Of Maya
Divine Illusion
I was pacing
After the toy rescue
And it dawned on me
Hard
My fear is an illusion
Created by me
In an instant
Flooded with joy
Energy
From my crown
Shock-ra
Part three of
The Loop
That morning prior
To this scene
I woke up
At 5am
Writing
About embracing
Honouring
Respecting
The Divine Feminine
Energy within
Me
This is not
A
Coincidence
And it
Is
If you know what
I mean
Since the toy
Rescue
I have been
In a mood
Unseen
For a while
Joy

Hard Ships

March 31, 2017 - Leave a Response

Today is an onslaught
In my intimasea
Wave after wave
Crashing against my port
Starboard
No respite
Pity me not
For this is where
My own self pity
Will be absorbed
By the sea
Transmuted
By alchemy
Along with
My other unintentional
Ball and chains.
I’m no longer
Allowing myself
To be buffeted
And tossed about
Literally
Driving me insane.
As with all
Declarations
There is a
challenge
My hard ships
Perhaps larger than some
And smaller in stature
Than others
Have blockaded
Me for a long time
No anchor
No site to shore
I am diving in
To explore
Monomyth
Jonah’s tale,
Not sure if
Mine will be a whale.
Need a different
Approach
To what has kept me stale.
Navigate
With Aid of celestial stars
And pray to angels
Here and far
If I drown
I will go down
In my story
As leaving behind
All that no longer served me
In hopes
Of better lands
To be co created with my hands.
If I transcend
The perfect storm
Shine on
My true form
And light the way
Illuminate the day.
So in this intimasea
All turns of the
Captain’s wheel
Are done intentionally.

Two Trees

March 29, 2017 - Leave a Response

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I waited for you to
Rescue me
Role reversal
The feminine hero
Heroine
My Dope
Recently all I do is mope
Do you know what
It feels like to
Be despondent
Hopeless, Helpless
Crying out for help
And hating it simultaneously?
Closing off
Myself
Lately I have been
Semi authentic
In my heavenly
Pleas
Help
Me
Please..
Why..
Why not…
I got my Wake up
Call
No Doubt

I was afraid to rock the boat
Then it became stuck in a moat
Afraid to trigger
And lost my inner navigator
Enabling in a different way
And I’m the receiving end
This time.
I became afraid of losing you
If I was me,
You liked the newer me
Attracted
But still repelled by
Possibility
To fall back
My mitigating
Only instigating

Don’t call me in
The Fall
When all your
Summer flings
With persons or things
Leave you
Still feeling
Empty inside
Missing
SoMEthing

Nurture Your Nature

October 19, 2016 - Leave a Response

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