Reckoning
February 26, 2018

Maybe
I’ve been
Ignoring
Something
Or
Multiple
And the
Slow
Realization
Isn’t
Necessarily
Liberating
Nor is
It
Defeating
It just
Is
Like a smile
On my
Face
For no
Reason
Perhaps
Because
I get
More and more
Comfortable
With who
I am
Becoming
The shadows
Still
Dance
But I’m
Not in their trance
Anymore
The cliche
God has
Taken people
Out of your
Life
Although
You walked,
Not once
But twice
Neither time
Very nice,
To do
Me
A favour.
I always believed
A
Certain
Level
That
Was not physically
Present,
Being
Slightly
More awakened
Can be
Monumental
And
Detrimental
Sometimes
Both times
You walked
Away
From me
I’ve endured
Massive
Creative
Self
Expansion
And
Expression
Some
So painful
Brought to
My knees
Others
Standing
Tall
Arms outstretched
Becoming the
Magnificence
Of Trees.
I
Know
Who you
Are
And what
You are
Capable
Of
It’s just
Not there
For me
And that’s
Been
One thing
That’s been
So hard
To surrender
To,
Embrace
The
Nothingness
In front
Of my
Face
So much
Introspection
Not all
For you
It lingers
Less prominently
But it’s been
A full circle
In a year
How
Time
Flies
I’m glad
I purged
Pretty much
Everything to
Do with
You
Because
The memories
I have spent
Much energy
Keeping at bay
Their energy
Positive
And
Negative
Now
I know
Both
Treated
Equally
Surrounded
By
Light
And
Given
Away
Like
Butterflies
Floating
Towards
The blue
Skies
Double
Rainbow
Pot of gold
At each
End
Or perhaps
The same
Like
Dust
In the
Wind
The
Sands of
Time
Will
Blow
Into
Another
Rhyme.

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Lose Your Illusion
May 13, 2017

 

All of them
I said you need your freedom
And you said thank you
But you don’t get it
This illusion you have
Is based on
Fear of commitment
Not me impeding your growth
You imply i hold you back
Or that i don’t allow you
To be you
And that was never the case
Nor is.
I was committing to
Nurturing our
Relationship
And if you don’t
See that
Or believe
That
That’s your issue
Not mine.
I’m the one
Who wrote
In my notes
In this house
I’m committed to fostering
Togetherness
Sharing
Openness
Honest Communication
Authenticity
Creativity
Self Determination/Independence and Interdependence
A healthy space to be
Nurturing one self”

As a mantra
Of being
But of course your don’t
Remember
Me sharing this with you
Either, do you?
You’re too blind
To see the love
That has shined on
You
You’re more in
Bondage by
The non acceptance
Of your shit
And chasing your tail.
You do deserve it
To hear this
Not because you’re
A bad person
This time I’m
The Yoga instructor
That told you
You’re not
A compassionate
Person
But I’m
Telling you
Way more about
Yourself
So yes I do
Need to say this
And you need to hear it
Because no one
Else is going to tell
This to you.
So it’s a gift
If you choose
To allow your
Perception
To see it for what it
Is
And not feed your
Old patterns,
Raise your
Awareness
As you did
With what
She said,
You are
Creating
A fair bit
Of this.
You want me
To give up
On you,
You think
Letting go
Of you is
The answer
I’m not holding
On to you
We are both
Free
Always have
Been
Always
Will be.
You think
Letting go is
A one time
Thing
It’s Can
Be an ordeal
Repeated over
And over
And over
Again
Until the lesson
And new pattern
Is learnt.