Reckoning
February 26, 2018

Maybe
I’ve been
Ignoring
Something
Or
Multiple
And the
Slow
Realization
Isn’t
Necessarily
Liberating
Nor is
It
Defeating
It just
Is
Like a smile
On my
Face
For no
Reason
Perhaps
Because
I get
More and more
Comfortable
With who
I am
Becoming
The shadows
Still
Dance
But I’m
Not in their trance
Anymore
The cliche
God has
Taken people
Out of your
Life
Although
You walked,
Not once
But twice
Neither time
Very nice,
To do
Me
A favour.
I always believed
A
Certain
Level
That
Was not physically
Present,
Being
Slightly
More awakened
Can be
Monumental
And
Detrimental
Sometimes
Both times
You walked
Away
From me
I’ve endured
Massive
Creative
Self
Expansion
And
Expression
Some
So painful
Brought to
My knees
Others
Standing
Tall
Arms outstretched
Becoming the
Magnificence
Of Trees.
I
Know
Who you
Are
And what
You are
Capable
Of
It’s just
Not there
For me
And that’s
Been
One thing
That’s been
So hard
To surrender
To,
Embrace
The
Nothingness
In front
Of my
Face
So much
Introspection
Not all
For you
It lingers
Less prominently
But it’s been
A full circle
In a year
How
Time
Flies
I’m glad
I purged
Pretty much
Everything to
Do with
You
Because
The memories
I have spent
Much energy
Keeping at bay
Their energy
Positive
And
Negative
Now
I know
Both
Treated
Equally
Surrounded
By
Light
And
Given
Away
Like
Butterflies
Floating
Towards
The blue
Skies
Double
Rainbow
Pot of gold
At each
End
Or perhaps
The same
Like
Dust
In the
Wind
The
Sands of
Time
Will
Blow
Into
Another
Rhyme.

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Love’s Affinity
February 21, 2018

Love is relentless in its
Process of showing you
More and more and more
Of who you are
And who you become
Once you let some light in
To your life.
It is a soft breeze
Necessary
To assuage
All that
Has hardened
That use to be
Soft
Even in the face
Of self perpetuated
Resistance
It is gentle and kind
Warm and soft
Welcoming
Embracing
Comforting
Strengthening

 

I wanted to name this Relentless is Love, yet Love is…so there is a pull, love doesn’t come chasing you.  It’s inherent.  The more you awaken, like a slow rising sun at dawn…the energy washes over you.  Relentless is because of the resistance to it..it’s always there, yet resistance makes it seem like it’s a battle and the only battle is within oneself to fully open up to it.  At least this is how I feel presently.  My sun is continually rising so…stay tuned.

Glass House
February 14, 2018

I compiled a
Chapbook
Twenty years
Ago
Glass house
Well
I’m still in it
Except
Now
I have no
Problem
Throwing
Stones
My doors
And windows
Are wide open
I see
My reflection
In my
Imperfection
It gives
Me strength
To say
What I say
The glass house
Is truth
And evolving
In the currents
Of
Accountability
And
Responsibility
If the foundation
Or structure
Has a flaw
That’s ok
If I’m aware
Of it
And choose
To act
Or not
That’s ok
Eventually
Something will be
Done
It’s inevitable
Because this
Glass house
Shines
Within
And
Without
Surrounded by
Love
A power
I have
A difficulty
Articulating
In it’s
Ability
To
Transmute
The sands of time
Into something
So crystal
Clear
And
Luminous

Ground Zero
July 3, 2017

 

Full circle
Almost to the day
Built this
Frame
For us
To build
Together
A legacy
Only thing
Left now
Is
Ground
Zero
No one
But
Me
Did a
Ceremony
Which
I really
Didn’t
Want to
Ripped
A metaphorical
Hole in
My chest
Too
No joke
My aura
Was broke
Thank God
For
Self Love
In the form
Of Reiki
Symbols
To
Revitalize
Myself
There is
So much
I don’t
Understand
What more
Am I supposed
To learn
Because
It’s been
An onslaught
Blow by blow
No after no

Forever One
May 21, 2017

Ohio plates
Repeatedly
Notre Dame
Another Clue
On the plates,
Ties in to
Paris
Past lives
Regression
Suppression
Karma
New Understanding
Different view.
Monk and nun
Cards
900 years ago
Medieval era
Love story
Ahead of its
Time,
Drawn together
Seeking deeper
Insight
Many years apart,
In age,
And after tragedy,
Castration, betrayal and
Isolation.
An only child
They had,
She was forced
To give up
Suffering at the
Hands of
Ludicrous convention
And worry,
Relative to the mores
Of their time.
Deep passionate
Yearning,
Love letters span
A lifetime with
Sporadic interaction.
Reunited in death
Bed by bed
Side by side
Forever one.

TV
May 19, 2017

I used to
Call it
Boob tube
Something that
Makes your
Mind
Go numb
Ironically
In a rapid fire
Succession
It was the fifth
Thing
I noticed about
You,
Cleavage.
The first
Was your
Energy
The second
Was your
Voice
The third
Your smile.
The fourth
Your eyes
But this
All happened
So fast
That
Processing
It was like
A second.

Meaning
Takes on
Different
Significance
So much was
Done
Centred
Around
The TV
Based on
Sharing
Time together
Side by side
Arm in arm
In the company
Of an angel
And family.
Laughing
Crying
Sleeping.
Conversations
Of perception
Or events
Transpired
Brought
Together

A Testament to Myself
May 15, 2017

I am worth
The effort
The pain
The hurt
The risk
The anxiety
The struggle
The fear.
I am worth
The effort
To sit in
And be with
And go through
The hellfire of
Of it.
I am worth
Living for
And dying for.
My worth is
Inherent.
I’m willing
And glad
To be
Submitting
To my true
Self.
To evolve
To be
Who am I
Which is
A sparkle
In the
Shine
Of Divine
Light.

Snapped
May 13, 2017

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Snapped
Sway bar
Stabilizer
First reaction
What’s going on
Trying to figure out
And understand.
Old energy patterns
Of blame
Anger
Crop up
Attempt to transcend
Transmute
And
Know
For I did
Observe
The emotional
Storm within
And surrender
Ask for help.
The light bulb came
A day later.
Going too fast
Swayed side to side
Out of control
Felt like i was
Going to tip over
And split.
At a certain threshold
Calm and steady
Sure it’s
Good to rock
The boat
And shake it up
But there is a balance
Not warp speed
Nor turtle pace
Either
Interesting
Usually in my haste
I’m in a rush to
Get nowhere
When behind the wheel
Griping about how
Slow this is
Or why is that
Like that.
This time
I didn’t care
About any of that
About being surpassed
Or even moving fast
Enough,
As much
As I wanted
To get home
Safe and sound.
What happens
When something
Breaks
And you can’t fix it?
You put it in
The hands of some One
Who can, surrender.
Worry about warranty
Coverage
Or will I have enough
Money to cover
It
Feed the fear fire
Only to find out
That no added
Expense
You’re covered
And taken care of
And better yet
There’s something
There to tide
You over until
You get your
Truck back
From repair.
A family van

Dancing With My Dark
April 22, 2017

My shadows

Seem to be a

Gnarly crew.

Are they the same

For you?

Pick the soft

Spots to

Hurt

And Grind

The gears?

Is its

Foundation

Fear?

Jealousy?

Self Pity?

Anger?

Darkness?

Resentment?

Pain?

Worth Issues?

What purpose

Do they serve?

I’ve decided to

Dance

With some,

It’s up close

Embrace

Face to face,

Or wallflower

Stand still,

Sometimes

Petulance

Defiant in

Their space

So I just

Stand in front

Of them

Follow

Their lead.

Honestly,

Don’t have

A clue

As to why

I still

Carry these.

But I do

Know

Now

That I can

Be

Happy

In their

Presents.

 

Twin Flame
April 5, 2017

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Watched two flames

In one candle

Dancing

Last night.

Incredible energy,

Both drawn

Together.

They bend and twist,

Turn and tilt,

Lean in, lean out

Fast, slow

Frenetic shaking

Followed by

Steady calm.

Trying to consume,

Capture, Fuse

Each other

While sharing

The same space.

So powerful and illuminating,

Attracted, repelled,

Too hot to handle,

Too cold to not

Come back

Together

In the center,

Both fuelled

By the unseen

Fluid air.

 

ps capture the minute meditation video – Candlelight – on nurtureurnature.ca tomorrow to see this brilliant dance