Snow play 
February 9, 2016


Hard to imagine that over the thousands of years a snowflake has never been duplicated. They all taste the same though, cold! I recently watched a movie where two characters stuck out their tongues in the midst of a snowstorm. I chuckled. Two adult characters behaving like kids. What possesses a kid to do this anyways? To try and catch snowflakes with their tongue? Even if there are multiple reasons, at the end of the day who cares? It’s play. It’s reckless abandon and spontaneous. Living in the moment. Something that we as adults, generally speaking, lose touch of. Myself for sure.  


This photo says a thousand words not heard but played out in my head and in action, literally, in like ten seconds. This is the second photo. The first one I took, I was way too serious. Trying to take the perfect picture while holding my iPhone with one hand and trying to catch snowflakes simultaneously. I judged myself in the picture and then made the effort to actually relax and try to remember what it was like being a kid. No care in the world other than thinking this is the coolest thing ever. I’m catching these snowflakes that are free falling from those big fluffy clouds all the way down to earth. If these snowflakes came in chocolate I’d never come inside.  


One of the thoughts going through my head is what would someone think if they saw me? Ironic how it’s acceptable for a kid to do but this isn’t really an adult acceptable action.  
The other thing that went through my head is that this really isn’t fun and I don’t remember what it’s like to be a kid. Then I got sad. How pathetic is that? What’s happened to me?


Brene Brown, a researcher that has spent some time exploring the concept of vulnerability and wholehearted living, states there are ten attributes of people who live authentically from the heart. Play is one of them. I definitely need more play in my life. Doesn’t mean I’m not authentic or living from the heart but as I’ve gotten older it seems easier to get lost in the worrisome cycle of non-fun dreariness. Thank God for big fluffy snowflakes and the grace to melt a frozen heart to enjoy the majesty of winter.  


February 3, 2016

This morning I was reminded of something that I had wanted to write about so here it is. We were blessed with a glorious view of the full moon a week ago and on a cloud free evening walking my pup I was reminded of a saying. We were walking through a park, snow covered the ground in this vast open space all around us as we breathed in crisp winter air. In the distance you could see smoke rising from a chimney floating upwards, as if reaching out to embrace the full moon.  
Looking at the ground in front of me all I could see was a dazzling display of glitter. Some sparkles brighter than others, only for a moment because with each step the moonlight was reflected off the snowflakes differently. Incredibly beautiful. It was similar to seeing the brilliance of the sun reflected on the surface of water, all the ripples shining together in a universal choreography. 

Paraphrasing the quote from a fading memory, essentially we all have the same light within. Some of the biggest and possibly hardest lessons, for myself in recent times, are compassion, non-judgment, seek to understand perhaps more so know what sympathy and empathy are. This is not only in regards to and for others, but more importantly, I find for myself. Anything I cannot do or be for myself is hard to share with others.   

Communing with nature always brings peace to my soul even if I can’t grasp the small or large picture. So in this moment nature is the classroom that reminds me of my roots and I am grateful.

AA – 1 Step
April 17, 2015


“Ever have one of those days when…”

As someone just mentioned, there’s always something to be optimistic about even when having one of those days.   How lucky am I to have witnessed a double rainbow?

As above, so below.  As within, so without


Nature’s Insight – Great Blue Heron
April 16, 2015

Blue Heron

Word play deconstruction ahead:

First Word

insight – in(wards) sight to nature (my own).  Insight – a ‘gift’ (deeper understanding, liberation, etc),  insight – it, whatever it is, is within grasp (ironic within means inside ).

Second Word

Self – love.  Now love is not singularly definable from a being perspective.  What I mean is that when we are being..whatever it is in the moment, love comes in many colours.  Today’s was Great Blue Heron.

Great Blue Heron Symbolism

Self – determination.  Self – reliance.  These are attributes of self – love which I will elaborate on momentarily.


The Little Kid Under the Bed
April 13, 2015


When I was small I got spooked easily.  Watching the old Frankenstein or Dracula movies were enough to petrify me and I would hide and sleep under my parents bed.  The first few times I did, I had to sneak and do it because it was something my parents forbade me from doing.  It was tough as a little child to be sleeping downstairs on the main floor by myself while they and my sister slept upstairs in their rooms.  I never realized until this moment how this made me feel so alone and vulnerable.  Nor did I understand how it formed part of a pattern of stifling communication when I’m vulnerable because I won’t ask for help when I’m in this state because of the negative compliance implications (rejection) and due to the result of not fully understanding things from my parents perspective which was well meaning.  Today that little kid was peering out from underneath the bed in pretty dramatic fashion.



The Equalizer
April 11, 2015

unnamed copy

An equalizer can mean many things; sometimes it’s a reference to balancing things out, can be an instrument to make music sound better, ebb and flow in the sense that somedays are better than others or an interesting line in a movie that after some conversation sparks this post.

I’m blessed with some great things in my life and recently one of them has been to instruct and lead a meditation group at Anchored Social Club in Toronto.  This past Tuesday evening was another special evening shared with 7 great people.  During the discussion post-meditation, Ben Dussault, owner of the fitness club, presented the question of how to take the effects of the session into everyday living, like doing  “homework”.



Every Breaking Wave part 1
March 31, 2015


Been putting together a number of written pieces and the song by U2, especially their live version from European Music Awards – which is so passionate – has converged with and influenced a number of insights in my life.

The end result, something being integrated into my meditation workshops and will become part of an upcoming book / guide dedicated to self-love and awareness is the following  piece.

It could be a personal mantra, an awareness activator for prayer and introspection that I use and came to understand in my own exploration of esteem issues and everyday functioning.


You are loved
You are wanted
You are unique
You are welcomed
You are needed
You are appreciated
It is safe to love
It is safe to be loved
It is safe to be in love
Give yourself a big hug, in front of the mirror preferably 🙂
picture taken at Huntington Beach

The End and the Beginning – Part 4 of 4 in Cocooning, the end of Me series
January 13, 2015

Final dedication is at the end of the poem.

first beard selfie  second beard selfie

Never had a beard before and for some reason felt it was appropriate to this concept and process of cocooning.

Downward Inward Upward Outward Spiral

Home sweet ummm

Maybe not



Is officially

Where I have


And it


That is going

To change (more…)

Open Door – Cocooning, the end of Me part 3 of 4
January 12, 2015

Dedication to a great host, while in California, is at the end of this.


last ocean meditation

Would you
Upon deep
There is no such
Thing as
A heart that is


Pilgrimage – part 2 of 4 of Cocooning, the end of me
January 11, 2015



Enter into
The dream,
Land of living
Oceans, mountains, desert