TV May 19, 2017

I used to
Call it
Boob tube
Something that
Makes your
Mind
Go numb
Ironically
In a rapid fire
Succession
It was the fifth
Thing
I noticed about
You,
Cleavage.
The first
Was your
Energy
The second
Was your
Voice
The third
Your smile.
The fourth
Your eyes
But this
All happened
So fast
That
Processing
It was like
A second.

Meaning
Takes on
Different
Significance
So much was
Done
Centred
Around
The TV
Based on
Sharing
Time together
Side by side
Arm in arm
In the company
Of an angel
And family.
Laughing
Crying
Sleeping.
Conversations
Of perception
Or events
Transpired
Brought
Together

A Testament to Myself May 15, 2017

I am worth
The effort
The pain
The hurt
The risk
The anxiety
The struggle
The fear.
I am worth
The effort
To sit in
And be with
And go through
The hellfire of
Of it.
I am worth
Living for
And dying for.
My worth is
Inherent.
I’m willing
And glad
To be
Submitting
To my true
Self.
To evolve
To be
Who am I
Which is
A sparkle
In the
Shine
Of Divine
Light.

Snapped May 13, 2017

Snapped
Sway bar
Stabilizer
First reaction
What’s going on
Trying to figure out
And understand.
Old energy patterns
Of blame
Anger
Crop up
Attempt to transcend
Transmute
And
Know
For I did
Observe
The emotional
Storm within
And surrender
Ask for help.
The light bulb came
A day later.
Going too fast
Swayed side to side
Out of control
Felt like i was
Going to tip over
And split.
At a certain threshold
Calm and steady
Sure it’s
Good to rock
The boat
And shake it up
But there is a balance
Not warp speed
Nor turtle pace
Either
Interesting
Usually in my haste
I’m in a rush to
Get nowhere
When behind the wheel
Griping about how
Slow this is
Or why is that
Like that.
This time
I didn’t care
About any of that
About being surpassed
Or even moving fast
Enough,
As much
As I wanted
To get home
Safe and sound.
What happens
When something
Breaks
And you can’t fix it?
You put it in
The hands of some One
Who can, surrender.
Worry about warranty
Coverage
Or will I have enough
Money to cover
It
Feed the fear fire
Only to find out
That no added
Expense
You’re covered
And taken care of
And better yet
There’s something
There to tide
You over until
You get your
Truck back
From repair.
A family van

Dancing With My Dark April 22, 2017

My shadows

Seem to be a

Gnarly crew.

Are they the same

For you?

Pick the soft

Spots to

Hurt

And Grind

The gears?

Is its

Foundation

Fear?

Jealousy?

Self Pity?

Anger?

Darkness?

Resentment?

Pain?

Worth Issues?

What purpose

Do they serve?

I’ve decided to

Dance

With some,

It’s up close

Embrace

Face to face,

Or wallflower

Stand still,

Sometimes

Petulance

Defiant in

Their space

So I just

Stand in front

Of them

Follow

Their lead.

Honestly,

Don’t have

A clue

As to why

I still

Carry these.

But I do

Know

Now

That I can

Be

Happy

In their

Presents.

 

What Would I do Without You April 10, 2017

I don’t know
What I would do without you,
Wallow in self pity
Build larger walls of resentment
Watch my anger fester
And sorrow grow?
And never really
Know
What it is
To love?
I’m still coming
To terms
With
Who You are
Or What you are
And
Dear God
Or Gaia
Or Both
I truly would
Have no
Strength
If it wasn’t
For the guidance
You give
And the Light
You provide.
One day
If I’m so blessed
To meet you
Divinity
Personified
I will look
To the skies,
Raise my arms
And then kneel
To kiss the ground
For my wishes
Come True

Puppy Love March 13, 2016

  
Where time stands still

And nothing else matters

Innocence 

And presence 

In the moment 

Talk for hours 

And it seems 

Like nothing

Effortless 

There were 

No fears 

No cares 

About what 

Other people 

Thought 

The first hurt

The first scar

Unable to 

Understand 

Return to innocence

So many years 

Later

With true love

Forgiveness 

And God’s guidance

From the

Dwelling home

Of 

The heart 

Puppy love

Unconditional 

Expression

To the world

In your hands

And 

Without

Guided by

Your soul

Make a Wish February 25, 2016

  
How difficult is this simple exercise?  Say these words authentically:

“I’m sorry, it was not my intent to hurt you. I will try to be more sensitive.”

I’m going to reach out on a limb and venture a guess that this is not easy for someone who probably thinks they have done nothing wrong.  It’s not my problem the other person is too sensitive.  I’m not sure if I was like this years ago and in my more awakened, vulnerability I feel more now. If so, maybe it’s the karmic wheel in full circle. 

It’s astonishing that some people will hurt someone or offend them and be completely unaware of the damage they have done.  Ignorant innocence, is this the new term to describe it?  What does this teach?  First and foremost to love myself.  Find a quiet space and sit with myself to be with myself as I cope with the emotional turbulence within until I find a better sense of equilibrium.  Forgiveness, don’t want to hold a grudge against the person ( for too long anyways ).  Introspection leads to another demonstration of the golden rule; filter what comes out of my mouth in general.  And this is even tougher presently because the hurt I feel leads to a natural coping action of lashing out.  

I chose this dandelion picture because of a number of it’s attributes – delicate, out in the open, interconnected, almost transparent. All elements, and not limited to, of the process of nurturing your nature, loving your self. May we all make the effort to accept and embrace the challenges of choosing love. 

Nature’s Insight – Great Blue Heron April 16, 2015

Word play deconstruction ahead:

First Word

insight – in(wards) sight to nature (my own).  Insight – a ‘gift’ (deeper understanding, liberation, etc),  insight – it, whatever it is, is within grasp (ironic within means inside ).

Second Word

Self – love.  Now love is not singularly definable from a being perspective.  What I mean is that when we are being..whatever it is in the moment, love comes in many colours.  Today’s was Great Blue Heron.

Great Blue Heron Symbolism

Self – determination.  Self – reliance.  These are attributes of self – love which I will elaborate on momentarily.

Spring Salutations April 15, 2015

Rise up! Rise up! Rise Up!

In the stillness

Of their stance

You may actually feel their

Rebirthing excitation

To be a part

Of another

Mother Earth

Spring renewal

See how

They colour

Our World

In Vibrant

Radiance

Their inherent

Earthly dance.

photo credit – mother nature and me 🙂

Wannabe Beach Bums – New weekly feature – Dose of Vitamin M April 13, 2015

Ok..so I have a tendency to be deep, pensive and sometimes too introverted (in case you haven’t noticed that from my writing and poetry).  In recent times there has been a heightened awareness of my heart centre and things like vulnerability, unconditional love, compassion and so on.  Let it not be forgotten that this internal fountain of youth within us is connected to enjoying life and indulging in humour.  With that being said, I like to have fun as much as the next person and more so lately since I’ve given my anal retentiveness a serious kick to the curb.    I am blessed with a dog who acts as a buffer for me.  He’s a walking billboard that flashes “Why so serious?” on some occasions, “Let’s play” on others.

So, in keeping with this adventure of maintaining and finding balance from a fun perspective, I’m introducing a new feature – Weekly Dose of Vitamin M – featuring my chocolate lab, Mustang!

Today he is accompanied by his one of his partners in crime, Corona…

Tomorrow…not so sure … may have to call ‘Puppy 911’ after this natural gas explosion.